so… tomorrow is my driving test. im not really worried about it i dont think, im more missing being at home with my housemate. i would rather be up there than here… but thats one of those things i guess! Ironic that i feel more jittery about not being up there for less than 24 hours than i do about a driving test! especially if i fail that then its going to be a whole heap of shit to end up getting around to doing it again! anyway… winners dont have it in their mind that they will loose… ergo, i know i will pass. OFCOURSE… now having said that i will have to delete this post if i dont because i will look an absolute knob! lol

think i saw jupiter yesterday in the sky, was nice and cloud free! might go out star gazing tomorrow or later this week if the skys are clear. really wanna get into it and take photos. best time of year for it now!!!

anyway, guess i will update/ delete this post tomorrow! lol

Not long until home now! 4 days! It hasn’t really gone quick though to be fair. Its one of those things i guess, the christmas period did go quick, but there has been such disappointment and boredom this holiday it has dragged! I can honestly say I cant wait to get back home, somewhere I rent and is mine! 

Driving test in 4 days too! Im not worried… should I be? I think not, worrying only makes things worse. I probably havent had enough prep as i could have had… but i think I am safe (which is the whole purpose after all!)

I am lonely living here, which is ironic as im surrounded by more people than at uni… but theyre not people i can or really want to relate with. theyre not people im living with by choice, but by necessity. I look forward to sitting down with my flatmate and watching the new series of csi on tuesday! (hopefully the HOT HOT sara sidle will be in it!)

It’s funny, I shouldn’t post so much piano music… really makes me miss my piano! Roll on another week… I’ll play until my house mate gets jealous and wants to play it or slams my fingers under the cover to stop me lol! (probably will be about 5 minutes knowing her!)

Seriously, anyone who reads any crap that I write or post… you have to read these poems. They are really, really good. 

-bittersweet-memories-:

I wrote this about 6 weeks ago…

An empty mantra,

A false hope,

Keep me living

As this ghost.

Warmth in this graveyard,

Colour in the clouds.

I see my reflection

And what surrounds.


It’s uncontrolled.

I’m caught.

Wrists bound.

Was it better when I fought?


Deeper,

Deeper,

Deeper,

Deeper.


It cuts.

You break.

I go back.

A ghost with new memories. 

(via kissmesweetly-fuckmehard-deacti)